by Cheryl Moses
This is a situation that occurred sometime back, but in recent weeks, I’ve felt as though I’ve been reliving it.
As I drove home that night after work, I could think of no better way to spend my evening than wasting away in a heap on the floor trying to figure out what went wrong. I was overwhelmed, exhausted, and fit to be tied! However, God in his gracious wisdom intervened and informed me that all that drama would not be necessary. It was not at all a fitting way for the daughter of a King to spend her evening.
So instead, I began asking the Lord one very simple question. Why did the circumstances of this day affect me so negatively? Certainly I could have avoided all of this angst. Then, over the next few days He very graciously answered my prayer.
I have learned some very revealing things about myself – some revelations I might not have come to face had Monday never happened, and I not realized, it wasn’t at all about the circumstances. It was my response to them which caused me to seek the Lord for clarity in the first place. Of course I prayed for the rest of that week to go much smoother than it started.
That one day’s events illuminated some areas in my life which had been hidden in the shadows – areas in which I needed to grow. Most days I enjoy living in the moment. Yet I often forget that it is in those moments, in both the sublime and the agonizing, that I am being molded, shaped and perfected, or not. Therefore, I’ve been learning to live not only fully present but also aware of the impact my actions may have on others at any given moment.
It is a fact that each day has a beginning and an end. We close the door on one day only to open it again for a brand new one. Never-the-less, living with an eternal perspective where we realize each moment builds upon another and affects our lives in the present and the future, we can begin to see that the door actually remains open – as an invitation to keep working at this life thing. There is more to this thing than meets the eye.
Something is always happening just beneath the surface of our lives, which is why surface level relationships offer no real meaning. Those cannot sustain us. God is doing something behind the scenes in those hidden places of our lives. The door to our transformation remains always open for us to walk through, if we dare. So I try not to lament my rough days because I know that even in them, the Lord is allowing the discomfort of those moments for my good.
“I’m not saying that I have this all together, that I have it made. But I am well on my way, reaching out for Christ, who has so wondrously reached out for me. Friends, don’t get me wrong: By no means do I count myself an expert in all of this, but I’ve got my eye on the goal, where God is beckoning us onward—to Jesus. I’m off and running, and I’m not turning back.” Philippians 3:12-13 (The Message)